I began to look up to other beauty influencers like @emmachamberlain, @sleepyyou, and @artdr3am for posting their real skin despite the unwanted pressures of social media.
As I started to gain popularity from my makeup looks and tutorials, I slowly started to showcase my real skin — no smoothing, removing zits and blackheads, and editing out spots on my face.
I hid when friends took out their phones, and the people I followed shifted from close friends to popular influencers that filled my feed with clear, flawless skin.
Textured skin caused by my hormonal acne became my biggest insecurity as I searched for a new regimen.
The video showcased a step-by-step outline of using the online tool to remove acne and scars and smooth skin.
Despite the happiness I felt as we posed, an overwhelming feeling of shame washed over me as I stared at my bumpy, hyper-pigmented, freckle-filled skin with the only thought in my mind being, "How do I untag myself?
I started applying foundation and concealer over my acne, covering every pimple, zit, and my overall hatred for my skin.
However, the fear of others seeing and judging my skin lingered, resulting in full-face coverage for the next four years.
I realized that I had just continued the cycle of promoting unrealistic skin in the same way that beauty advertisements did.
I didn’t want others to feel embarrassed of their skin the way I did growing up, viewing filtered photos and yearning for an unattainable version of myself.
I had just continued the cycle of promoting unrealistic skin in the same way that beauty advertisements did.
I felt accepted as comments praised my clear skin and people asked for my skin-care routine.
I instantly became drawn to editing and retouching my pictures, desperate to look similar to the Instagram influencers and beauty ads I was used to seeing on my feed and in store.
Instead, I’ve grown to love my authentic skin — clear or with acne.
I also followed brands like Squish Beauty that promote authentic, acne-prone skin throughout their campaigns.
Although the coverage disguised my skin, pictures picked up on each bump layered across my forehead, nose, and chin.
Perfect skin is a myth, acne is normal, and you are perfect just the way you are. https://t.co/UhaaT5te2l— POPSUGAR Beauty (@POPSUGARBeauty) June 29, 2020